Monday, July 29, 2013
We have been stuck for too many times
I cant rmb how many times have we turn to a separation whenever we're hit with a communication breakdown. It's a shame. And when we decide to get back tgt, it's always due to mere emotional longing for each other. Somehow we had taken it for granted that at the end of the day we will still be there for each other.
If only we are willing to invest the right amount of time and effort to build and maintain the relationship, everything else will be worthwhile when we reap twice the amount of support thereafter.
He is not ready for it and feels that he has no capacity of doing that at the moment.
I figured that i should let go on a further level. I have let go of him as being my boyfriend-company, it didnt seem much of a problem if i dont consciously think about it! Bcos we dont hang out very often anyway and it makes no much difference to my time scheduling. Ive also learnt to let go of concepts of how a boyfriend should be, such as expecting daily sweet texting. Ive also let go of the mistakes he had made bcos i chose to see such behaviour as his moments of anger and impulsiveness and not his real intent.
I only wish he could be happy and gentle and open to communication.
9:47 pm