Tuesday, July 30, 2013
放
我们的感情根本就只建立在于手机联系上。 没有了电话联线，关系也不就是一场空。 缘份说来就来说去就去。现在好想忘了他， 但需要好多好多的勇气和自爱。 不能在乎他正在做什么，不能在乎他和谁在一起，也不在乎他有没有找我。所有不明白的是时候放下，无需追问。因为该呈现出的答案一直都在，只是被借口和贪爱给盲目了。8:42 pm
Monday, July 29, 2013
We have been stuck for too many times
I cant rmb how many times have we turn to a separation whenever we're hit with a communication breakdown. It's a shame. And when we decide to get back tgt, it's always due to mere emotional longing for each other. Somehow we had taken it for granted that at the end of the day we will still be there for each other.If only we are willing to invest the right amount of time and effort to build and maintain the relationship, everything else will be worthwhile when we reap twice the amount of support thereafter.
He is not ready for it and feels that he has no capacity of doing that at the moment.
I figured that i should let go on a further level. I have let go of him as being my boyfriend-company, it didnt seem much of a problem if i dont consciously think about it! Bcos we dont hang out very often anyway and it makes no much difference to my time scheduling. Ive also learnt to let go of concepts of how a boyfriend should be, such as expecting daily sweet texting. Ive also let go of the mistakes he had made bcos i chose to see such behaviour as his moments of anger and impulsiveness and not his real intent.
I only wish he could be happy and gentle and open to communication.
9:47 pm
Monday, July 22, 2013
He wants so much from me
Just asking, what would you do if your partner is constantly finding fault with you? making you feel inadequate all the time. what if you’ve already tried your best ? what if what he expects aren’t even part of your obligations? what if 50% of your time and space is already spent on him?
He wants so much from me. 
is this what love is going to be? why is it so tiring ..so fearful of doing wrong things or not doing enough.