Monday, May 21, 2012
live like an enlightened journey without a goal
namo gurubhya
namo buddhaya
namo dharmaya
namo sanghaya
Dear Buddha, please take me to your pure land. May I gain courage, wisdom and compassion to create my own pure land and able to benefit all other sentient beings too, everyday.
I had lived so meaninglessly today. Instead of doing my assignment, I spent my time checking up on my boyfriend. I felt that my mind is being weighed down by so much negativities and almost going to blow up and lose it because my emotions just got very controllable.
I know very well that I have to solve my emotional problem myself because he has no time to bother with my issues and whining to the girls just makes me feel like a little bitch even though there is a temporal relief effect to that.
I have learnt to absorb the shit I’ve created by myself if not it’s going to affect the people around me. Anyway I have to stop depending on others if I want to be a leader (when I’ve just started getting used to rely on him… oh well..but I’ll have to transform my attitude to keep up with changes)
Smile Evina 
8:04 pm
Sunday, May 20, 2012
一个人崩溃
不知道这是什么心情。自己也变了像一个哭包，却不知从何可以找到安慰。最想要依赖的人又不在身边。我什么都不想做，只想大哭一场， 却觉得自己又懦弱又狼狈。