Our first thought of the day often rings in our head throughout the entire day. This morning I woke up at my psychological reminder for the truth for nus’ decision. disappointed? yes…. angry? not really… scared? very…
I’m scared not because I have no where to go… I know I have something else to work on but not knowing where… I’m being asked time and time again for my plans by EVERYONE everyday (my family, friends, colleagues, people I’m meeting for the first time and this is going to continue with people I’m going to meet soon until the day I know my next step) . Every time I’m being questioned, I trembled. I foresee every single thought, question, comment coming from them because my mind wants an answer from me too. who am I depending on for an answer? my mind again? my mind doesn’t even have a mind on its own… Frightening questions are the questions you’ve been asking yourself unendingly.
Then again, is the subject of our faith the target we turn to whenever we have questions unanswered? Is this the best solution to problems that always have roots in laziness and un-courageousness?