Saturday, April 09, 2011
happy mind
We do most of the things in life with the hope of getting noticed by others, in other words, trying to meet expectations both from others and ourselves. Of course, some of them are inevitable due to the nature of our work but most of them are unnecessary. And by having that as the main motivation for our daily activities, there is practically no time for ourselves!
Actually the idea of having time for ourselves is difficult. I think sometimes when I’m engaged in my favourite pastimes like singing, sleeping, eating, they didn’t turn out to be as rejuvenating as they are supposed to be. I sing to feel good about myself, sleep to……..sleep and make up for my sleep loss, eat because it’s meal time or I felt obliged to have a meal with people I think I should get to know them better. So actually, in many situations, I don’t exactly feel very comfortable with my surroundings. But as usual, I forget about all these slightly negative feelings once they’re over.
It’s not quite a big deal after all this issue is not bothering me very much. but unfortunately, it’s tiring me out. There are 7 days a week, and I’m only required to “meet others’ expectations” twice a week because I’m paid to do so and things I do for the rest of the week are my own initiatives, yet I’m kinda unwilling to wake up every morning.
hahaha…. I shall see what is my first thought when I wake up tmr morning.
goodnight! 