Sunday, November 07, 2010

Hello friends,

3 weeks since my return to Singapore! And I haven't finished my entry on Tibet! Man… I miss Tibet.

Actually my current life is pretty disorganised now. How do you tell?

My room is in a mess and I think it kind of reflects my state of mind- idle and unfocused. So sorry to admit that. I'm supposed to be rejuvenated from my trip to the holy land and ready to be very motivated. Uhhh…

But I do feel very joyful now…because I know I've just been through a very amazing trip and now I'm back with my family and friends. You know it's not that I have got nothing better to do. I HAVE PLENTY OF THINGS TO DO… but my current attitude towards life is too laid back and even though I'm not exactly slacking but that leaves me little security for the future. And I'm getting very indecisive over the slightest matter…haiz. Why like that?

There are a few outstanding events/projects/agenda coming up:

1. 2 wedding dinners in nov
   
2. I want to give a friend of mine a thank-you gift but I'm very shy so I've been procrastinating for damn long… omg.. I wanna kill myself.
   
3. I'm involved in a children's camp in late nov
   
4. 21km standard chartered run this early dec and I haven't started on my training.
   
5. I recently took up a new childminding prog and the turnout appears to be ……not very productive for the children. I dunno if I should continue volunteering weekly.
   
6. I'm supposed to complete the synopsis of some dharma books but I don't understand how that whole data entry works.
   
7. I have not done sufficient research on what I want to study next year and everyone's giving me that how-could-you-look. Ok lah not everyone…
   
8. I'm becoming a children dharma teacher next year and I think I'm always running out of ideas to contribute to lesson planning
   

Well… most of the time they are not bothering me until when I decide to think about them.

Kay I'm going to sleep now. It's getting lateeeeee…..nites!