What do you think is happening when I'm at a loss of words at describing myself? Lack on self-reflections? Vocabulary? Maybe hopefully it's a sign of less labelling.
It was just a few years back when I thought that I was damn critical at identifying traits of people (including myself).
For example, I've always felt that I'm very optimistic (and secretly think that more people should be like that) but now I think it may not be true because my beliefs could be just an illusion!
I too used to think that some people are this and that….(actually I still do…) And when such and such notions are formed, I'm bound to my own understanding of these adjectives.
But now I found out that there are actually so many truths to it that got to be uncovered!
So my point is, there is no need to be so harsh in your judgements towards people, and not forgetting to be kind to yourself too.
Still, my problem hasn't been solved yet. No labelling is good. How am I going to respond to interviews in the most truthful and pleasant manner?
I'm running out of words to say……..Thus shying away from people whom I don't know well. D= there are too many of them and I continued to smile out of obligation. That certainly made me very awkward.
Of course there are people whom I can converse well with and people whom I don't know how to respond to.
Wearing hot pants under a tunic that TOTALLY COVERS IT or exposing a bit of the shorts once in a while is kinda gross to me… why are there plenty of females wearing these things out ?Omg. Are they lacking of fabrics to wear? I don't mind a top going with hot pants but a slightly elongated top with…underpants? NO! I only wear that when I'm going to sleep…Zzz.. haiz… I don't know how this trend started as I've only noticed this recently at my workplace. I believe it's neither Korean nor Japanese… cos their fashion sense isn't so…lack of attitude. anw that was just my observation lah…nothing much…hurhurhur
Hi Hi ! I'm back again..
Quite a tiring day for me today because I slept late last night and had to wake up early this morning for dharma junior 2011 curriculum discussion. This morning's meeting was interesting because lama popped by a couple of times and gave many helpful advices on our lesson plans. I've always believed that children dharma is very important …..so I'm very keen about taking up this challenge. Well anw…I wanna try my best to do a good job in this. Now it turns out that most of our lesson outlines have to be revised and it is going to be more meaningful. That would mean that a lot of reading and clarifications have to be done.
It's funny how there seems to be a continuity in the different things I've been doing this year.
Why am I dealing with so many kids?! Partly because I agreed to all of them but that was because all these opportunities had arisen. Plus, I'm not the kind who likes to entertain children. I would like to understand them and then learn to love them but I don't like to baby-talk too much with them. Sometimes baby-talking is necessary to build a rapport but when it's too much……it's nothing detrimental lah I guess…. It just disinterests me. Sigh
Hahaha…
And then in the afternoon I had lunch with family in view of my brother's upcoming birthday. And then went to search for the breadmaker at OG departmental mall. there wasn't much discount to it so we dropped the idea of buying it. Nice, haven't really been out with my siblings for quite some time already.
And there is a greater cause for celebration and that is, my brother agreed to join my mom and I this evening for Tibetan Buddhism course. J that's a very good start to get one to open up your mind!
Hello friends,
3 weeks since my return to Singapore! And I haven't finished my entry on Tibet! Man… I miss Tibet.
Actually my current life is pretty disorganised now. How do you tell?
My room is in a mess and I think it kind of reflects my state of mind- idle and unfocused. So sorry to admit that. I'm supposed to be rejuvenated from my trip to the holy land and ready to be very motivated. Uhhh…
But I do feel very joyful now…because I know I've just been through a very amazing trip and now I'm back with my family and friends. You know it's not that I have got nothing better to do. I HAVE PLENTY OF THINGS TO DO… but my current attitude towards life is too laid back and even though I'm not exactly slacking but that leaves me little security for the future. And I'm getting very indecisive over the slightest matter…haiz. Why like that?
There are a few outstanding events/projects/agenda coming up:
Well… most of the time they are not bothering me until when I decide to think about them.
Kay I'm going to sleep now. It's getting lateeeeee…..nites!
We're once again in the month of November! Wedding dinners are coming up next ! haiz… I need to watch my diet mans.