I've been haunted by math for my whole life. My math foundation is lousy, critical thinking is pathetic, hopeless at visualising anything 3D. My mathematical inclination is so low such that someone once commented this," omg ! you're really jinxed by math !" I still remember that back in my primary school days, the boys in my class always made fun of my ever-failing mental sums exercises. -_-. but thank god for the advent of CALCULATORS in secondary school. ah despite the tremendous help calculators had given me, I still couldn't escape from the horror of failing math at sec 2. However, I managed to admit into a triple sci-double math class because I was recognised by people around me that I was a potential distinction student. I was then hoping that my brain just needs time to develop for math. And then math teacher, Mr genius Melvin Lim at 2nd sem of sec3 came to the class' rescue. To be honest, I've only seen my results turning for the better at the later part of sec4 =\ (I'm sorry mr lim) Till then, amath was a big struggle for me. Even after much tuning to my mathematical concepts and much practices, my much improved math subjects then laboriously reflected a B and C (btw, B and C grades seem so unattainable alr). So O lvls in short, was a screw up.
Now in JC, I'm still stuck in the same situation. I've scraped through math time and time again. Is that a sign for me spend my time on other aspects that I can better pull off with lesser amount of effort invested, before time has to prove it to me explicitly? but I don't have the choice to do that, at least for now since I've already laid down my subject combi and it seems to be the most suitable for me. I will still believe that math can be managed.