After a slight touch on this in my previous post, I've decided to continue elaborating about this.
I should have made a correction. People with less determination instead of no determination. A person without any determination would not be a living human by now. That is not within the scope of discussion because I think that there must be more to just giving up when death is concerned. But in the case of committing suicide, the person has to be determined too ( in order to die successfully). He has to take the lift to the highest storey or climb the stairs while battling between ideas going through the mind and at the same time, convince himself that the going-to attempt movement will outweigh whichever negative consequences. From the point when he decided on committing suicide to the time when he attempted suicide, he remained determined.
The issue is, since you have so much determination to carry out the painful process, why would you not want to put the effort in pulling through an ordeal in life. Life is full of uncertainties, life is full of hopes !
sigh people who preach are irritating.
lol...what a lousy ending. ha ha
!!!! I've washed the toilet, hand-washed my clothes, packed my table despite waking up at 1230. wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
My mom agreed with me that as the generation gets younger, the people become even more weak. What's becoming of these supposedly young and zealous people? Young people like us, always dream but how many of us actually strive to realise them? If this is going to turn to a trend, then I will really think that human's increasing life expectancy( I wrote about this during O lvls!) is a blessing. At the very least, the more mature group of people are standing a chance to influence the naive daydreamers before the latter devastate the beautiful home that the forefathers had painstakingly built on.
Life is progressing very much towards perfection. Of course, the stage will never be attained because human desires are never diminishing.The only change in desire against the time of progression I guess, will be the decrease in the basicity of their needs.
Just like the Maslow's Hierachy of needs- the more primitive needs at the bottom of the pyramid such as physiological needs while self-actualisation at the top. Unfortunately, when people has met the more primitive needs, they do not feel anything. They will only be motivated when driven to deprivation.As for self-actualisation, we don't have many people practising that.
Some people are already taking the first step to self-actualising, by dreaming, then aiming.
And then due to some distractors, the plan got called off. Where is the determination to stay focused?
If you come to think of it, isn't it ridiculous to give up on a project just because of some obstacles? I'm talking about people whom are already considering it, not those insincere people. Then it's time for the people to question themselves on how much desire do they have within.
Take something that is more related to my life for instance, the upcoming campcraft competition. I have juniors who are absenting themselves from trainings because their parents disapprove of them. Very obviously, the parents' disapproval is only a smokescreen of their disinterest in the competition. If you are really serious about something, will you not fight for it? Don't tell me that you are just being obedient and fillial. So if your parents are against your relationship with this someone from the opposite gender for some reason that you can't accept, will you just stay away from the person? If yes, I've really gt nothing to say.
There are people complaining that the trainings are eating into their holidays. EAT INTO . So what exactly should be considered as an ideal holiday? free from committments? only doing things that you like? or just rotting away? You mean your life is soooooo long to have so many holidays meh? continue doing the things that you LIKE only...see how far and fast can you achieve something.
And I don't understand why are they so narrow-minded.Why can't you experience the process wholeheartedly before you judge for yourself if this is your kinda thing? We have people coming for trainings as and when they like.
The outsiders stereotyped campcraft as knots as lashings. That, I don't bother to argue. Yet as for people who had attended some of the trainings, already have the same mindset as the outsiders, still refusing to accept any additional inputs to their mentality.
Note that I've refrained from referring the people as the campcraft team. It is because I'm not mentioning about any particular person (s). Not that specific as to REALLY think about who is in the team.
You know sometimes, the degree of meaningfulness behind some things depend on the individual.It is just being plain dumb to expect people to always explain the meaning so explicitly. Furthermore, what seems meaningful to others may not be to you and vice versa.
That explains my point above which I've mentioned that I don't bother explaining how much I think otherwise about the competition to outsiders because they are not the ones experiencing it. They will not be able to see as much as those who are in the field.
I was complained of laughing too much today ! that was because nobody else was laughing as hard as me, maybe with the exception of yipeng. I'm only understanding the clique's type of humour from another perspective. So I really don't think I'm some giggly idiot lor.
somehow I don't feel like as if I'm graduating already. I have a slight unaccomplished feeling which some people think that they had made a spot on the factor. I'm not gonna deny already, not denying anything that contains uncertainty. cos it gonna do injustice if it is genuine.
okay anyway, i think prom night was above my expectations.NO except for the food! it was substandard for tung lok. roast duck was too boney, shark's fin was really quite bad (luckily the vinegar saved the day), soft shell crab just tastes like any other normal cracker, fish was average, wasn't too impressive, cereal prawn is disappointing, tea too diluted !!! how can liddat? will ruin the reputation lor...
other than that...emcee quite funny..uh games and the prom prince and princess quite entertaining..
my table mates were enthusiastic. they stared at each other after each dish is served.
hm.....i will need to go and sleeeeeeeeeeeeeep first. more to come later !
lol initially I wanted to blog about Jay Chou's new album but I don't feel like now. maybe another time.
Ytd a surprisingly mr nice guy initiated to dl his songs to send me after I've approached him to ask if he has his songs. thank you very much ! So I roughly listened through all the songs. I must admit that I didn't feel very comfortable when I first heard the songs as he made a slight change to his style. As quoted from mr nice guy, it got a little more "bolder". I feel that they seem so strange and quirky.
Then I started to hear alot about the rainbow song. So I went to Munkeong's blog where the song keeps repeating itself to listen. The more I listen to it, the more emotional i get. you know this song, has a sorrowful melody (and I'm not even paying attention to the lyrics). I already feel like crying already. hm but actually, this song is quite similar to the rest of the songs in the previous albums. So it has gained my acceptance very readily, unlike the rest in the new album.
That is not anywhere near substandard. I've realised that his songs gotta be listened to more frequently then it will get more addictive. So go and listen more to him and his pieces ! I'm gonna get the album if I'm happy. =D
I heard my dad and mom talking about retirement when we were in the car today. Then I thought to myself, If it is not for me and my relatively big age gap between me and my other 2 siblings, they could've enjoyed an early retirement by now. hm....
I dropped off at central while they went ahead for home. I went around looking for items to accessorise whatever I have. I didn't find anything suitable then I walked down the road to bugis. Zzzzz and once again, I headed in the wrong direction and only realised it when I saw Police Cantonment Complex. -_- I'm so hopeless.
After wandering about Bugis, I did not find anything, still. So I gave up and went looked at irrelevant things such as stationeries ( ??!!! ) and lingerie. I think Muji is a very brilliant company. Muji products are simple, plain, wood or clear plastic-based, yet appealing. There are finally geniuses whom can understand the taste of customers like us. Of course, the price is quite ridiculous. The products are afterall only good to look at.... ha ha ha.
And then I moved to the next door Calvin Klein. I've always loved Calvin Klein's cuttings. This time, I gt even more disprited cos the prettier lingerie dont have the size I want !
ROAR ROAR ROAR !
this is getting up my nerves. nothing is that pleasing to me...
omg omg oMg Omg omG oMggggg OOOooooomg OMGzZZZZZZZzZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzz
I don't know what should I feel about my sister. I don't like her that much but I dont think shes that horrible. BUT SHE IS REALLY THAT HORRIBLE FOR SAYING THINGS THAT MAKE MESO UNEASY. I'm also unsure if I'm angry a not. cos if I'm angry, I wouldn't have helped her buy food for HER bbq with HER colleagues.I would have prevented Godfrey from sleeeping in our shared bedroom while I went to the balcony to sleep the other Saturdays. YUCKS ! this is not going to help if I continue to bottle up and only vent my frustrations here and complain a lil to some of my friends and my mother. because my mother always thinks that my sister is so mature and forward looking yet you know what, I think that she (my sister) is just thinking too highly of herself. I REALLY gave up talking earnestly to them. I'm very shallow and frivolous what and had deviated to another channel that is far too contrasting from theirs. To my dear friends whom had patiently advised me, I'm quite apologetic about it because I'm still feeling very HELPLESS.
ok this is getting rather exaggerating...but I'm serious about this. Been getting quite moody over this already.
I heard my dad and mom talking about retirement when we were in the car today. Then I thought to myself, If it is not for me and my relatively big age gap between me and my other 2 siblings, they could've enjoyed an early retirement by now. hm....
I dropped off at central while they went ahead for home. I went around looking for items to accessorise whatever I have. I didn't find anything suitable then I walked down the road to bugis. Zzzzz and once again, I headed in the wrong direction and only realised it when I saw Police Cantonment Complex. -_- I'm so hopeless.
After wandering about Bugis, I did not find anything, still. So I gave up and went looked at irrelevant things such as stationeries ( ??!!! ) and lingerie. I think Muji is a very brilliant company. Muji products are simple, plain, wood or clear plastic-based, yet appealing. There are finally geniuses whom can understand the taste of customers like us. Of course, the price is quite ridiculous. The products are afterall only good to look at.... ha ha ha.
And then I moved to the next door Calvin Klein. I've always loved Calvin Klein's cuttings. This time, I gt even more disprited cos the prettier lingerie dont have the size I want !
ROAR ROAR ROAR !
this is getting up my nerves. nothing is that pleasing to me...
omg omg oMg Omg omG oMggggg OOOooooomg OMGzZZZZZZZzZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzz
I don't know what should I feel about my sister. I don't like her that much but I dont think shes that horrible. BUT SHE IS REALLY THAT HORRIBLE FOR SAYING THINGS THAT MAKE ME SO UNEASY. I'm also unsure if I'm angry a not. cos if I'm angry, I wouldn't have helped her buy food for HER bbq with HER colleagues.I would have prevented Godfrey from sleeeping in our shared bedroom while I went to the balcony to sleep the other Saturdays. YUCKS ! this is not going to help if I continue to bottle up and only vent my frustrations here and complain a lil to some of my friends and my mother. because my mother always thinks that my sister is so mature and forward looking yet you know what, I think that she (my sister) is just thinking too highly of herself. I REALLY gave up talking earnestly to them. I'm very shallow and frivolous what and had deviated to another channel that is far too contrasting from theirs. To my dear friends whom had patiently advised me, I'm quite apologetic about it because I'm still feeling very HELPLESS.
ok this is getting rather exaggerating...but I'm serious about this. Been getting quite moody over this already.
hey hello.
WTH IS WRONG WITH ME? I CAN'T SEEM TO GET ANY HIGHER THAN THIS !
I'm feeling rather feverish and am not particularly looking forward to anything. Let's just face it lor, who does not enjoy indulging in material possessions ?! (excluding those who have claimed to have 看透肤泛 的物质生活，like 蔡老师) I'm not one of those whom are supposedly so much more mature in prioritising their needs in life.Neither am I another shallow secondary school girl whom had been pampered for the whole of the 16 years of life. Because the fact is, despite being the youngest in the family, I was not being showered with EXTRAordinary love from my family members. It's just that I am fortunate enough to be born to a family with quite a stable financial status. So every now and then WE ( I've emphasised the word we. referring my 2 other older siblings and I) made little and simple requests from our parents to satisfy our humble appetite for (somewhat, unnecessary ) material needs. For example, (wah lao...i can't even name a proper example lor )...................http://crocopanmoo.multiply.com/ and NO, my memory did not fail me in this aspect. I've thought very carefully before saying that. ok lar, not to mention that I've bought my sim card an umpteen times, lost my phone thrice, lost my wallet twice, ez-link card once (and almost twice), Zzzz...and cabbing quite a number of times (because I didn't make it on time for many appointments). but hey hey hey...I did try to make up for the money wasted lor...like uh, cut down on the number of times I ask $$$ from my dad, walk home instead of taking public transports when I'm out at places near the vicinity of my house, such as town, fort canning park, outram park,.....(and walking from bugis is NOTHING )
I didn't say so much just to prove that I'm a financial parasite or that I'm so thrifty. ....I just want to convince myself I had not been taking privilleges like these for granted =/. Although I've developed a fairly strong dependence on luxury, I had not lost my financial values, had I?
Why is there a woman who had just entered the workforce, so snobbish and restrictive over me?
I don't know what to do know....I'm here because I'm vexed and I don't know what to do !!!!!!!!!!!!!
Is there anything funny to listen to or watch at?
yiiiiiiiiiiiipeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
All good things come to an end, while bad things seem so endless yet eventually cease.
Thinking that this year is too much of being jinxed? I really can't decline that. But nonetheless, it has still got me experience to an assortment of emotions that I had not felt anything similar to them before. They are not just guilt due to some childish conspiracies attempted a year ago, neither are they just a lousy feeling after putting up with multiple reprimandings from...various adults. For instance, I finally understand what does it really mean when someone is blinded. You don't have to be in love to be totally blind. In any case of being overly focused in ANY thing, one tends to gradually shuts himself from the rest that are deemed less significant than the focus, then becoming oblivious of the mundane things that he did not think of as equally important as focus.
That's quite a sad thing because I think most of us are blinded most of the time. Some do not even realised that they had been blinded. I will not consider that as quite forgiveable because it's up to one whether he is conscious enough to be less narrow-minded. However, it has inevitably occured to most of the people. So ......treasure your literal eyesight.! since you can psychologically "see" that well anyway. Sign up for Architour ! Singapore has so many things to look at yet I don't understand why idiotic typical Singaporeans whom are blind (sometimes deaf as well) can complain so much Singapore being small and boring. Do you know the Singapore's geography well? Like ok, where is the largest agrotechnology park located?How often do you use the street directory? Do you EVEN know how to use one?
Anyway, I wanted to go for the night tour initially. Then to my disappointment, it is rated M18.
I'm quite interested in Singapore's seemingly thriving nightlife, not that I intend to assimiliate into that kind of lifestyle but understand how if differs from the day in terms of the people patronising the night spots, lightings etc. which metamorphise what's looking decent in the day.
In the end, I'm signing up for the day tripping together with mel ! yay
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To tell you the truth, I have already been in the post-exam mood since the end of the hcl papers. My daydreams all started since then. Rididulous questions came to me. Those that have thought that I'm crazy for asking absurd things out of the blue, ha ha that explains it.
I intended to reveal just a teeny wee bit of it but then I'm left with only quite some time before my tv show starts. so....no, another time then.
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I'm filling up my diary with more and more upcoming holiday activities already !!! *excited*
Although I still miss the classroom times.....
In a way, our class is quite hopeless. Till today, we are still divided into so many different cliques. hmph