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Wednesday, May 30, 2007

Second is the First Loser

If I consider my current mood as happy now, am I deceiving myself?

not digressing any further, there are some things that had been haunting my mind lately.
one of which is the national drill challenge which was held last saturday at St. Hilda's sec.
I've figured out that actually we really have nothing to hide. Here are the results:
Girls: Boys:
1. Cedar Girls Queenstown
2. New Town New Town

and the overall champ goes out to .....
Queenstown.

Being quite a prideful person, I was undeniably humiliated, disappointed, grieved, and appalled.
Yes, I am in no position to access the impartiality of the judges (HO Zaki & Paul) so what's more that we can do? whine? or try extremely hard to recall the mistakes we've committed for self-improvement? duh, I think both are equally unproductive. Whinning makes me feel psychologically better while the latter is almost impossible bcos those who're in the right mind will concentrate on masking the flaws during the competition and not brooding over the mistakes.

I felt so jolly today with nothing in particular.
Reported in school for the Inter-unit qc organised by own beloved unit.Obviously, we are not the participants of the competition so we just witnessed how the elites perform, not like we get to see them very often anyway.
and after that we headed to great world city for lunch.
very simple day and I questioned myself if the feeling is genuine.

on the second thought-why am I always living in apprehension?
Since I was feeling sooo good, then what for worrying if it's just a fallacy.
As much as I've realised, worrying just makes me more pessimistic.

yet you know what?
it's good to be an extreme pessimist bcos you get minimal disappointments and thus, very often being pleasantly surprised.



Life's good. ( is the statement even appropriate for this entry? )

6:41 pm