Saturday, March 31, 2007

some people who think that that are very emo and trying to behave like emo are freaking me out.

Zzz..

I'm referring to the type of er...taking photos in black and white, covering their hideous face with the disgusting fringe, pretending that they are looking somewhere else in their self-taken pictures...please lar. where gt ppl so emo already still want to take pictures to show others that they are emo ??!!

11:26 pm

Friday, March 30, 2007

heh hello..i tell you, my moodswings are getting more and more severe.
For a moment I can embrace any decent people ard, er not literally lar. lol, noticed that nowadays people really like to use the word " literally". and then *snap* I may be turning my torso diagonally to the right and start having discords with eugene. All that I have done are not deliberate, I swear that these are just not under the conscious control of my brain. hah...

anyways, school is getting noisier...VERY irritating. what's with the sparkler ringtone. disgusting people, keep playing them...just silence them lar ! muahahaha...! NOISY NOISY NOISY ! WHEN WILL THESE PEOPLE EVER LEARN HOW TO SHUT UP???!!! I really think the 4E classrooms' coridor is extremely filthy, not literally...(HAHA).
AND omg, have you ever encountered any mentor who had given up hope on his or her mentee? i have.
not that i have directly taken part in any of the above mentioned roles, just seen them before.
I think that's the second worst thing that could ever happen to anyone.yea but the worst is still losing faith in yourself.

To me, a mentor is probably the most important person in my life. If one is not prepared to be a mentor, meaning setting aside time, making sacrifaces...blah blah blah, then don't attempt to be one lar. because whatever you do gonna leave deep impressions on your followers. you are responsible for every hope that is dashed, every spark of extinguished passion, every disheartened mind, every rejuvenated soul, .....yea lar.
before you even think of giving up on yourself and your duties, think of who's watching you.
you naively think that it is just going to affect you and yourself but have you ever considered the chain effect that may occur in the future?
If i were to be involved in the chain effect, i would rather choose not to know the mentor if i have the chance.

ok...i'm done for today.
!!!!

10:20 pm

Sunday, March 25, 2007

okay i gonna do a quick one cos I'm in an extremely good mood- havent been feeling like this for a long time (since erm...the campcraft era)!

went for Area 16 ATF yesterday. had a very good laugh at the people attempting the obstacles. HUR HUR HAHA HA HA HA HA AHA AHAHAHAHHAAHA !!!! k lar... i also expected ppl to be sniggering at me too. but i dont care man ! because i think i've made it up for that by laughing at other people.

haiyer...i wanna go for ATF again.

If i've brought along my phone, i would have video-ed down the process of Nazrudin mounting onto the leap of honour of sth liddat. so funny lor, omg....he scolded the people who cheered for him. then after that, he said that he cant breathe when hes standing on top of the pole with the height approx. thrice of shiyong's height and surface area, just enough to fit a pair of legs. erm ok lar, ...i shouldnt be laughing at other people. i'm so sadistic.

and then, iqbal was telling me about this person ( an acisian if i didnt see wrongly, i have perfect eyesight tho) who was struggling very hard to balance on the cable..., " eh...the problem is, he thinks that hes moving but actually hes not !!!!" HAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA! but i think the balancing cable one..is quite sick. it is designed in such a way to make the people attempting it to move like an ant. I'M SERIOUS !

hm..what else. OH FLYING FOX! hahahah....advice for anyone in the future lar, dont queue behind elyna for any "TRILLING" rides. woah, that is for those who are very impatient and feeling very....masculine lar.
i'm fine with it tho. was right behind her for the flying fox...so while waiting for our turn, we gotta sit on the stairs just right below the the platform for you take off. and then, initially it was not a very pleasant thing to do la, because the stairs are grilled, that means you can see through the stairs to the ground level. oh fyi, it is 21m high. yea....so i spent quite some time sitting on the stairs and the view of the foresty surroundings ard the island got me kinda mesmerised. so that made me feel very calm already. somemore cheer huay and i were also talking away while waiting...yar. that flying fox then started to be simulated like the palawan island's tower or whatever you call it la, for me . hur hur hur....so NOT flying fox.

haha.. lastly, it's not that i'm very brave or what. it's just that i dont hesitate to make my first move.
but that is if, you have something to fall on =)

P.S oh btw, thank you matthias !

8:10 pm

Friday, March 16, 2007

(bus 33 )

I've seen this sight for 4 years already.
too fast too furious.

(family's car)

How much impression have they left?

(fadzil sir's car)

so much engagement, was there even an affiliation?

(bus 145)
committments, deadlines, impulsivity, unconsciousness, temptations.

(Mass Rapid Transit)

anticipation.

(bus 172)

out of comfort zone.

(Citicab)

once in a lifetime.

(Mr Chan's car)

Where is this going to bring me to?

9:18 pm

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

Who can I fall on if I collapse? Who are you depending on to get yourself on feet?
I'm so upset.
I'm heartbroken, heart pain...=( AHHHHH !!!!

YOU KNOW WHAT?
JUST ANY QUESTION WILL DO, TELLS ME STH ABOUT YOU.

do you know why is it a question? because mere statements do not require any opinions from me, at least I dont have to think of how to handle them, whereas questions are like requests for responses.
so if the person thinks deeply on how to answer, then the responses must have affected him/her.

are you stupid or are you dumb? am i stupid or am i dumb?
These are questions too.
I hope you can TELL.

anyway, today i came across this saying quoted at a book sales corner at Vivo city.
it goes, there are only two motives behind why people read. 1. to boast about. 2. due to personal interests.
sth liddat lar. i think it's so true.
now that I thought about it, why do people ask questions?
Why did i ask that question? Why do i even want to know why did I ask why people ask questions?
Because I believe questions have complex make-up of hidden meanings.
Questions make impactful entrances in passages, they stands out from the wordy statements.
Questions.
Very interestingly, are very much categorised under multiple groupings, unlike reads.
Firstly, we have verbal, written and gestured questions.
now coming to the confusing part, due to the politics that are so happening in this society, inconspicuous events occur, appearing oblivious in the eyes' of the third-parties. Then all personnel would feel, sense, and react

okay, it seems like a chunk of rubbish.
I will continue that in the next episode.
These are like little fragments here and there, very disorganised. I will try to change the whole sequence of it.

11:20 pm

Friday, March 09, 2007

hello there...regarding the weird facts thingy. I think i've done it before already but i gonna do it again bcos things gotta be updated one ma.
1.erm, i think i'm extremely weird but i cant think of anything weird of me. okay, heres one. I can sometimes, somehow see through what's masked from the surface in people but I didn't reveal that, just kept it as unnoticeable as possible, unless someday, someone discovers that. oh but i've said it here already. nvm, it's not all the time anyway.

2. The most lasting earworm i ever had was yuan you hui by Jay Chou.

3. I dislike guys who think that they are so drop dead gorgeous when they are absolutely not! like my yellow person.

4. I think Zaki Sir looks like a crocodile. HAHA CUTE !

5. I get goosebumps very easily esp. on my left cheek. eg. excellent vocal, grammatical errors, when there are too many hole-like thingy being clumped tgt, scratches on plastics and chalkboard.....too many insect bites

6. grey is my favourite colour.

7. Xp is the most ridiculous emotion to me. i wonder if anyone in this world can do that face in real life.

8. I don't really fancy surfbrands- common stuff

9. I (just realised only) smile a lil too frequently when I'm depressed.

10. I cant stand people who make too much noise.

11. I cant stand people trying to act like as if they are so morally correct when they are just, empty vessels lar.

12. I dont like correction tapes.

13. and whoo! I thought I'm a social butterfly. haha

14. PR skills are considered to be very important.

15. If I have a huge sum of money right now, I will fly off immediately then decide what's next later.

16. I want to go for hypno-therapies. if not I dont mind getting into temporary coma.

17. I have never sneaked into any NC-16 movies before =(

er okay...stopped here for now. cant go on and on...

anyway, it's a Friday today ! and the arrival of march holidays...everyday is packed with activities already.
today's npdp trng was jsut as usual. cept that the Marist Stella guy wasnt here, absence of the Mr know-how-to-answer-everything. sian..!ah haha...I started talking to this group of girls , all made up from all-girls unit. I'm the new addition to this self-acclamined fish club and i'm named the plankton. Dont ask me why, i'm equally as puzzled as you. oh my....the serangoon gardens guy is so action! he was the acting GOH then scrutinised every single one's salutations when i dont think hes any better. lol ! he was so condemned by the others today.
even this hwa chong guy was like, " ya la ya la..you go la. you're the most experienced one what" LOL.
hur hur hur...funny.

10:09 pm

Sunday, March 04, 2007

yo my comp is back from reformatting already ! before it was sent for servicing, i had a hard time saving all my documents in other forms la. and then w/o even finish saving 3/4 of all my stuff, i gave up already . so yea all of them were deleted, of course the important things like my sqd's stuff are saved lar just the miscellaneous like the pirahna drawing is missing.
I even bothered to save things like that, you will be surprised by them. The thing is, why am i so unwilling to give up the history. ok nvm. i did eventually.
I think this week has got to be the worst one since school started.

just came back from my aunt's hse warming. and oh my goodness, she lives in a landed property just right beside the MINISTRY OF HOME AFFAIRS! *screams* and i love it.
This Primary 1 cousin of mine, looks like the host of the 7 o'clock CNA programme, timothy and my cousin is called Edgar lar. SO CUTE !!!! he proudly brought me up to his attic. woah ! how cool can it get? AN ATTIC LEH ! I'VE NEVER SEEN AN ATTIC IN MY WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE! only like, read it in storybooks.

today is my first time trying out the 8.2 msger. yes i 'm feeling like a noob now but it looks so different from the one i used previously. now i really appreciate my keyboard, nice to press and no jams. cos i'm very pissed with my phone's key pad.it used to be coming back to its senses when i slam it with something hard now it doesnt even react to that already. i feel like throwing it away.

I tell you...yes i have many displeasures now. my life is screwed up. and anyway, i wont claim anything that doesnt belong to me. you lousy editor, transform my whole entire essay into something that doesnt resemble a single bit to my original. this is equivelent to putting words into my mouth, it is either you remove my name and take it that i did not do my work or just delete the article. if not i gonna make the situation turn sour, i mean it.

last week i didnt get to watch protege, wth. i almost got in ok !

wah i really feel like yelling. negative feedback control on the hormonal transition.

right..so there was a very big issue going on in my class this week but i think it has ceased.
the point is not how the issue came about, it's how the third parties get themselves involved.
lol...seriously, just be more careful about your behaviour. har har har har har har....

i'm left speechless these days when so many ppl bombard me with questions that are rhetological to me, at least for now lar.
" so how are your studies? it's like that when you are handling so many things concurrently"
" why didn't your peers stand up for you? " (for those who got that, then good for you)
" when are you going to find a math tutor?"
" do you think your long-term absence will result in an impact on ______?"
" what are you going to do about that in the future?"

i'm not totally clueless about them but many things gotta be considered before i answer them. at least i tell lies more than i do for white lies. haha just kidding. i have to resort to telling lies if the question limit me with little unspoken choices.

ohkay now i gonna make this clear. i'm just gonna take one step at a time, looking fwd to weekends and do my best during weekdays.