secret place on Earth

Saturday, January 06, 2007

hello...i'm back again. my mind is so full of many confusing thoughts. i think it has filled up to the brim of my tiny brain.
I think i'm very boring to a certain extent bcos i realise that I'm adopting more characteristics of an introvert.
I'm also , sad to say.. a hypocrite in many situations.
I'm an extreme pessimist but at the same time, can be very optimistic. no wait, that doesnt mean i'm neutral. i can go to the very extreme of both sides...

my memories became vivid as i listen to songs representing the diff era of my life. i enjoy doing reminiscences and planning for future. yet not keen in managing the present.

I'm utterly disgusted by some ignorant brat who is not even saving the last bit of dignity he had left since most of them are already taken away from him. that is fate.
too bad.

i have been questioning myself why is it that kept me so driven throughout this journey. I havent found an answer to satisfy myself...
I wish someone could just answer all my questions.
I know very well what the potential problem is but i myself am also facing that problem. I feel so sorry bcos i cant provide a convincing explanation.

As neighbouring intimidation has been overshadowing my confidence, it had brought me both triumphant and failures.

Earworms, ever thought of why is it that song being the earworm of the day? it could be a song you dont listen to that often but somehow, it is suddenly being conceived or rather, stimulated by your right brain to play it repeatedly in your brain.

Anyway, this post is not supposed to be comprehend.
I cant express these verbally to anyone because it does not follow any sequential flow, just like how they runs through my mind.

11:02 pm