secret place on Earth

Monday, December 18, 2006

hi...i dont know what am i exactly feeling now. is it dampened? pissed? or sian or...excited.
i feel like laughing at myself. i had jsut called up JOE THE SWIMMING COACH a minute ago.
This was how the conv started....

me," Hi, is this Joe the Swimming Coach?"
i really want to lol at myself but i also cant think of better ways to strike up the conv.

Anyway, sometimes i really hate my memory.

The most thought-provoking moment and unconscious state of me fall at the same venue.
whaha....guess wheres it? bus 33 !
I may be stoning and staring outside the window but actually many things are running through my mind. 20% of them are unconstructive. On the other hand, quite frequently seen by schmates, i may be sleeping away.
These days, I couldnt bring myself to sleep on the bus esp. when it's on my way home as what had happened in the morning was kinda impactful that left me to be so disturbed.
Not exactly disturbing in the sense that...it's not noisy noise.bcos it's on the bus what. so quiet and I seemed so isolated from the rest of the commuters on board, unless some old people decided to talk to me ( i dont know why, perhaps they are bored). er yea....why am i mentioning this? not quite explicit though because i'm still very disturbed, just that i dont think as much as i do when i'm on the bus. That's why i sprouting off some things that dont make sense.

By the way, I think i've lost my focus already. As in focus during the december holidays..i've been hopping around various tasks and gawd, i dont know what am i doing. I think my days are passing by in the same direction as the Earth's rotating motion. so......shallow...diluted, vague..

I'm kinda looking forward to Christmas.* I"m not a Christian.
had been thinking if i shld send out Christmas cards....hm. just like the good old primary sch days. =D

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