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Thursday, May 11, 2006

today is a very lousy day.
bcos firstly emaths p2 was such a screw up, i didnt really study after i've finished my post ytd.
and even b4 the cl list compre starts, i heard rumours about my chem marks. although the sources werent quite reliable, i've just gt this feeling that it's right this time.

i tell u, it's really a horrifying moment to see that red ink mark. bcos that is really really really really the first time i've failed science terribly.
before that, lemme briefly illustrate the accelerating results-time graph.

at 4-5 yrs old, then had i finally realised how to count from 1 to 20.
btw, i was very short when i'm 6. was only 106 cm.ZZzzz thought i was rather normal until i read about a 3 yr old child who is of 120+ cm recently.
learning the 3 timetable was a struggle for me when i entred primary sch.
finally saw the breakthrough in 5 , 6, 7 , 8 and 9 timetable when i'm pri.3.
was first exposed to science oso in that yr...
that old old tcher made me really lose interest in science. didnt really bother about it since p4 streaming doesnt consider that as a core subj.
until when i'm p5, dunno what the sci tb had offered that made me feel so passionate about science and the credit oso goes to my tcher of cos. so i started to score like, 42.5/50. WHOO HOO !
and i managed to get an A for psle science. but at the same time, i failed maths throughout the two yrs.

now this is the FIRST sci exam that makes me feel like a loser .
let me define the word of failure,
it is not just the standard quota that is being set ( which is 50%) that u didnt meet leh,
it's a condition when you know very well that that is not ur best bcos sigh, u've lost to urself.

i'm feeling so angry leh. dun feel like going to sch on monday bcos i will be receving my el, hcl, music, ss, phy, amath papers!!! what's worse is the ipw presentation. what a dreadful day ahead.... sighs.
also, i gotta pay $50 for island resort and $10 for meals during nco camp.

okay...bak to today.
the island resort briefing sorta cheered me up.
the itinery sounds rather interesting. i hope roy tan the sppoiler doesnt go.
theres more briefing by the agency on 26th may...SO EXCITED !!!

anyway nco camp is even more trilling bcos i dunno what activities to expect from the camp.
but 2 days is kindof short...shld haf 3 days ma !!!

woah so great to be back to np...those depressing thoughts will be filtered away soon!

9:08 pm