secret place on Earth

Thursday, February 23, 2006

it's all of a sudden, i felt that so much things are pushing me to my limits, so much such that i'm partially unconscious of my doings, so unconscious to an extent of disabling myself to judge for righteousness.
there must b a blockage in my brain which disallow information to be processed and stored efficiently. crap.
but that is seriously what is happening to me now. results are dropping...life is kind of meaningless when i start to lose hope in what i used to haf much confidence in. but the higher hope i haf, the greater the impact of the fall.
i've got no idea why is it like that, either i'm born to haf a pea brain or there is really blockage in my brain.

a stupid chemistry test could cost me less than a distinction.
i'm so.......disappointed. BOOOOOOO !!!!
how? i dont wanna get back my ppr.
physics was even worse.
i thot bio would be better, i hope.
n i failed amaths.
n mayb average for emaths.
more than i expected for english.
as usual for hcl.
nonetheless, borderline pass for ss.
geog is common sense, which i doubt myself having ne now.
i dont even wanna take a look at my music test !!!!

my gawd...never had i dreamt that i will land into sucha pathetic state.
and if i dun get marksmanship for .22 revolver and finals into ccc....
i dunno wat would happen to me.

9:40 pm