Saturday, February 25, 2006

wha hahah...i dont feel like blogging but my main objective here is to announce that i'm HAPPY !!!
THANK YOU MR CHAN FOR THE LUNCH!

now, the journey to changing into a more sophisticated-LOOKING shelter.
i felt that, one thing we're losing out to other good girls units is the structure of the shelter.

HURRAY !!!!

IT'S ORANGE BECOS THE FISH WE ATE WAS ORANGE IN COLOUR. lol.

7:08 pm

Friday, February 24, 2006

Dear loyal anonymous readers for devoting your time at this very moment:

wooo! i feel like a schnappi, flying sooooo high !
i'm like the fluffy white cloud in the sky!!!
wow, it kind of rhyme. i just created that out of the tmr-got-competition syndrome !feeling sooo....ecstatic.
we did many rounds today..out of which, i tink i was scolded by mazzzzuuuuurah for 3-4 rounds ar..for speaking chinese to others. lol.
what to do? i was talking to the cheena ppl. if i dont speak in mandarin, the msg cant really get thr...for angmoh isnt really our forte. tho i've got like, 83% for english compo common test. WHAHAHAHA ! ok, speaking of that. it was really pure luck. i was dozing off during the common test, n didnt really expect this. well....mazurah, sorry la. i still speak to u in english ma ! =)

and den, i hate it when people acting like everyone owes them sth when they're not in good mood. so what is your problem, mr vice-captain. siao ar ! so what if your elbow can reach for my head? i gonna shake your head till you wake up ur idea after the prelims for hitting my head b4 prelims.
i really hate it!
I HATE IT !
i hate it when my head is sorta touched with a certain amt of force, it's just like a vice gripping on to my head ! like crushing a piece of paper. u stupid thing,u cant go any furthur till you've realised what haf you been doing.

anyway, things within the pitch are generally quite well done, at least to me. mingwei is acting awkwardly...aiya everyone is la. i oso wat.

i'm using green font for today's entry bcos it symbolises GRASS ! an item which we all haf been working with for 5 mths?
ah...hahahaha.
currently, i'm still quite glad that at least, i've come to this far. there werent any quitters within the girls team this yr !!! hurray !!!!

10:13 pm

Thursday, February 23, 2006

it's all of a sudden, i felt that so much things are pushing me to my limits, so much such that i'm partially unconscious of my doings, so unconscious to an extent of disabling myself to judge for righteousness.
there must b a blockage in my brain which disallow information to be processed and stored efficiently. crap.
but that is seriously what is happening to me now. results are dropping...life is kind of meaningless when i start to lose hope in what i used to haf much confidence in. but the higher hope i haf, the greater the impact of the fall.
i've got no idea why is it like that, either i'm born to haf a pea brain or there is really blockage in my brain.

a stupid chemistry test could cost me less than a distinction.
i'm so.......disappointed. BOOOOOOO !!!!
how? i dont wanna get back my ppr.
physics was even worse.
i thot bio would be better, i hope.
n i failed amaths.
n mayb average for emaths.
more than i expected for english.
as usual for hcl.
nonetheless, borderline pass for ss.
geog is common sense, which i doubt myself having ne now.
i dont even wanna take a look at my music test !!!!

my gawd...never had i dreamt that i will land into sucha pathetic state.
and if i dun get marksmanship for .22 revolver and finals into ccc....
i dunno wat would happen to me.

9:40 pm

Saturday, February 18, 2006

i'm having mixed feelings. i do not understand why are ppl so unappreciative when we meant good.
must b my karma la...ZZzz.

i have to realise sth.
stupid ppl do exist.
stupid ppl with bad judgement
stupid ppl who think that they are unstupid.

nonetheless, i'm still very proud of ntnp cc boys team !!! good job. =)

7:49 pm

Thursday, February 16, 2006

YES !!! I'M SO HAPPY ! theres no mp tmr..was about to set up my ironing board when i got informed about that..heng ar. i was doing emaths bfore turning into my computer.
lately, i'm always reminded of time-managing and prioritizing my work . o levels, grade 8 piano and the campcraft comp. wah lau, can someone pls enlighten me by helping me to judge which one is more important?
i'm still very uncertain on whether i'm making the right choice.
4 more wks b4 i totally withdraw myself from the twines, ponchos and poles. p.s. i'm not looking fwd to that actually bcos i noe i gonna miss it. but at the same time, i gotta keep up on my other stuffs like music and the o lvls consistently in order to avoid ne last min pressure. whatever that is. if i gonna concentrate more on cc now since it will b over soon, then i gotta slightly abandon my other work for 1 mth meh? that is ridiculous.
i dunno la..i'm so depressed over piano. every wk got scolded for poor performance..and i haf to take grade 8 this yr. no actually, i'm still considering. my mom said she dont wan to risk my studies but i thot dat theres no point postponing this examination. for me, that doesnt make much differences to my progress. and the examination fees is hell, LOT OF MONEY !!!! 300+++ dollars leh ! i dun wanna give the angmohs so much money for nth, at least a cert printed in britain.
i thot there might be time for me to practise after ccc but i was reminded that there gonna b extra parades for the upcoming ssgt promo test in april, .22 revolver dry practices and classification shoot, kayaking course, syf trngs, nco stuffs.....WAH ! I'M LIKE, CANNOT FINISH NAMING !!!
mr chan said that we didnt do well for chem test. i'm still worrying about that...i cannot take the blow of scoring below my expectations, esp. for chem. tell you how many tests i had so far and gonna haf in this term, i just feel like continuing to blog..:
week 3: emath & amath tests.
week4: english common test.
week 6: hcl common test, physics test, chemistry test, social studies test.
week7: biology test, comprehension test, amath test.
week8: physics test, social studies common test, e maths test, chemistry test.
week9: music test, bio test.
week10: chemistry test.
ok la, not considered alot.
it's just much more than what i had in sec2...lol.
anyway, tmr gonna b a fun-filled day...i hope.
theres campcraft for the whole afternoon after assembly. yay...

10:08 pm

Saturday, February 11, 2006

hur hur hur....i'm bak again. not gonna do any changes to my blog until i feel like doing so.
anyway i have really been very very very very busy.
my weekly after-sch activities
mon- mep
tue-bio & campcraft
wed-hcl & campcraft
thu-bio&piano
fri-parade & campcraft
sat- campcraft.

so everyday, i reach home during the evening hours. 6 to 8 lor.
n nxt wk i still haf geog vap on tue. mr chan pulled jiayi, mingwei and me out of the chemistry course at sp bcos of campcraft...VERY UNFAIR LEH !
i wish the earth will start spinning slower..mayb 34 hours a day. like wat yipeng said.
i really dun wan my studies to b affected bcos of np, i dun wan np to b a burden on me !!! wah lau. but things r turning out to be like this lor...SEE LA ! n nxt nxt wk i haf .22 dry practice, gonna miss bio lesson. WHY!!! i doubt mr chan gonna conduct bio vap for us lor.
ytd and this morning i had fever ( i tink this post gonna be kinda whiny).
i tink it's bcos of my ears being exposed to dat very harmful sound wave everyday.
now i prefer wkend trngs to wkday trngs. peijun mdm shld haf come down since the dec hols...!!!
she has good judgement, high intellect, she perfectly understood how girls would haf felt. trngs on sats r fruitful.
whereas trngs during wkdays are just like..ure trng aimlessly? some with an objective of outshining the others in the team..i dunno LAR !!!
is it's human nature to sympatise the weaker one? the one standing solo? i'm very clear of what i'm doing. i dont haf to seem like i'm gaining popularity amongst everyone bcos i noe very well that i dont deserve sucha friend. dont make me sound like i'm the petty one, i dont bring my personal grudges onto the field.
i was pissed even at the start of today's trng. mr chan screamed at us for not buying ponchos ytd since he released us earlier ytd. y is he so stingy to drive his all the way to beach rd? i was sick ytd and reached home at 8 how to buy la?
i think i'm beginning to realise something, i'm getting more temperamental.
GOOD luck man.....

10:28 pm

Thursday, February 02, 2006

oh it just happened to b friday...so i'm gonna laze ard the comp for a while b4 i go prep. uniform fer tmr's mp and then...bak to my books.
after erm 5 wks of schling, as in fer sec3 life..i've realised that theres really a limit for my brain capacity. at least for my pea brain.i haf been juggling with 10 subjs. i'm feeling the pressure only at the beginning of the 2 yrs prep for o lvls and i tink they r driving me nuts. that explains the very worn-out look i have these few days. i tell u, it had been hell when theres too much lack of sleep, for me. i really wonder how vidya could amazingly burn the midnight oil THROUGHOUT the nite w/o dozing off in class the nxt day. sometimes i question myself, is there really a need to take up 10 subj at one go? but hor,wouldnt i b at the losing end if i dun learn as much things as i can, since there isnt much specialisation of a subj in this sch?i dunno much about that yet, gonna see how far i can go..
i wouldnt say campcraft trngs are that much of a burden on me, i'm just very much affected emotionally. =(
tmr so many ex-ncos are coming down to take a look at tmr's trng, i hope they wouldnt b disappointed.
and i m so doomed...i tink i gotta meet up with roy tan for ss and geog vap on saturdays outside sch. tgt with vidya, maybe.he cant really teach lar.n den maybe, shelter trng on wed after hcl.
ok lor...hope things will go smoothly. AND SIAN ! I'VE MISSED ONE CHEM WORKSHOP AT SP! it's on learning how to judge the quality of eggs. wah so interesting!!!!