secret place on Earth

Saturday, October 29, 2005

PART I:

argh....my condition of oversensitivity has worsened. i rilly nid to neutralize it !!!!
i'm always getting bothered by stupid nonsenses that ppl had made. but hu m i to view it as sth i shld get away from it n continue with my normal life? the folks out there always haf diff perspectives of things, i always consider the..OPINIONS of them to seeking improvements. it is always said that we're nt born to please anyone but wait a min, ure nt living in a world of ur own, u nid to communicate !! adopting ideas frm ppl , so there..improvisation.
eugene is so right, it takes a thousand perspectives to make a wise man.
now, i'v pondered too deeply over what ppl think bout me. i guess what makes me get so haunted over the thots is that i'm nt thinking ! i'm nt...reflecting. dat shld b the right thing. whether izzit just plain jealousy ..? or..m ijuz not deserving enuff.
i've figured that out, the latter shld b the main culprit of the negative evaluations from outsiders.
i cant expect myself to b flawless aka perfect, neither can i not expect gossips from them about me. there r always things that they can pick on. why do they pick on the flaws? bcos they r unhappy with the fact that the imperfectionist happen to fulfil a challenge which they had failed to do so.
so i shld b expecting ppl voicing their opinions as i go along rite? be it positive or negative.
but the problem is, i am..errr...taking everything tooooooo seriously to heart. esp. the critism. not that i cant take them. it's juz dat i had spent too much time pondering over them, n it has seriously slowed down my progression..in life. so there came, over-sensitivity.
so u c, very serious problem has arisen.
but i still very much appreciate, the rilly constructive advices tho.












very contradicting i know.

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